“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things. Endures all things.” – 1 Corinthians 13:4-7
I have shared that I have been thrust into a role of a caregiver and this role does not come to me naturally. Being thirty (almost thirty-one :o), single, no pets, and living abroad meant that the only person I had to consistently concern myself with was me. I lived alone and pretty much came and went as I pleased. If I wanted to sleep until noon, I did and if I wanted to stay up until 2am I did. It was just my life and I didn’t think too much of it but in hindsight, I had it relatively easy. I mean I taught my students but I generally had them for forty minutes at a time and then a new class would rotate in.
Fast-forward and I have found myself in a season of adjustment and I wasn’t handling it very well. I was acting like a toddler whose parents have told her “no” to whatever she had requested (demanded). It wasn’t pretty. Now that you have the background, I’ll tell you what’s changed.
I finally took everything I felt and laid it at the cross. I vented to God about my changes and this new season. I complained about being in a new town and not being able to finish my time abroad. I complained about missing friends and the lifestyle I had. I complained about the pain my mom was in and His lack of healing. I fretted about finding a job and starting medical coding. I confessed the feelings of guilt I was carrying around for being a bit upset with the changes in my life. It let me get real with God and stop sugarcoating things. It made me stop pretending to be a “good” Christian servant. It also meant that God would be real with me and draw my attention changes I need to make in my attitude.
I learned that I have a lot of work to do in my heart. He showed me that I needed to die to myself and stop thinking that I was the center of my world. While I need to take care of myself (physically, emotionally, spiritually, etc.) I am called to serve but more than that I am called to love and so are you.
I’m not sure why people have a tendency to only associate 1 Corinthians 13 with weddings but the Lord put this on my heart for things He wants me to work on. I have broken then down and am focused on being patient and kind for seven days (or longer, as needed) and then building on the next one. I’ve been doing this for several days already and find myself meditating on this portion of the scripture throughout the day. It’s changed my response to people, not just those in my immediate vicinity but in general. I’m happier and more settled and I’m more in tune with God than I have been for the past several weeks. It’s amazing what some honesty at the cross can bring.
Are you going through a difficult time? If so, I encourage you to take everything to the cross and be real with God. It’s okay to be angry or upset – just read through Psalms to see how real David was. Being honest with God means clearing the air but it also means that you need to be prepared for His response. We love hearing from you, so let us know what you think! ❤