I love Psalms and seeing how David spoke to God. It shows an intimate relationship of honesty, trust and love. I sometimes struggle with the idea of sharing my feelings with God (or anyone) without holding back. I don’t mind telling Him when I’m really happy or scared or even sad but I hold back on telling Him when I’m angry. Yet looking through Psalms, I see David display all of his emotions, including anger. He doesn’t bottle it up; there’s really no point in that anyways, since God already knows. David addresses it with God. He lays it at His feet and let’s go.
I know some of the anger I’m struggling with is a result of my selfish desires and dreams. I know God has a plan and that it is for good. I know that this is where I am supposed to be but…I’m angry. I’m angry at having to give up what I want so that I can do the right thing. Then I feel guilty. It’s a terrible cycle of anger shoved aside that boils over at the “best” time and then leaves me wallowing in feelings of guilt. I’ve asked myself a few questions:
1.What do we do when God calls us to give up our dream and drastically change gears?
- What are we to do with our anger and worries and burdens?
- What can we do when life is too tough?
- How does He call us to live?
As usual, when I turn to His Word, I find the answers I need.
- When God calls us to give up our dream and change our lives, He calls us to be like Abraham and to obey. He calls us to move even if we don’t know the destination.
“Now, the Lord said to Abram, “Go from your country and your kindred and your father’s house to the land that I will show you.” – Genesis 12:1
- When we are angry or worried or burdened, Jesus told us to give it to Him. We don’t have to carry the weight alone. It doesn’t mean that we won’t have struggles but it does mean that we won’t be alone to carry our problems.
“Come to me, all who labor and are heavy laden, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you, and learn from me, for I am gentle and lowly in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” – Matthew28-29
- David tells us that when life is too rough that we should run into the sheltering arms of our father, God. He shows us through example how God was his refuge.
“He rescued me from my strong enemy and from those who hated me, for they were too mighty for me. They confronted me in the day of my calamity but the Lord was my support. He brought me out into a broad place; he rescued me, because he delighted in me.” – Psalm 18:17-19
Psalm 46 also points us to God as our refuge:
“God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.” – Psalm 46:1
- We’re called to be like Jesus. We’re called to serve and humble ourselves and obey our Father, no matter what the cost. My broken dreams are nothing compared to the sacrifice Jesus Christ made when He chose the cross! I can grieve and ask that things change but ultimately I must accept what is and move on.
“And going a little farther he fell on his face and prayed, saying, “My Father, if it be possible, let this cup pass from me; nevertheless, not as I will but as you will.”
– Matthew 26:39
Three times, Matthew records Jesus asking that God not require this but ultimately it was done, as the Father needed it to be and Jesus went willingly to the cross. This terrible event led to the salvation of our souls! This event was necessary for Christ to rise and defeat death! This act of obedience and humility is how we were saved!
So while I understand how I am to respond, I also recognize my humanness and know that it will be a process of acceptance. I also know that He is using this time to develop me for work He needs done.
Do you struggle sharing your emotions with God? How has God shown you to respond to these struggles? As always, I love hearing from y’all!