I’ve shared that my life has taken an unexpected turn and I am back in the US handling some family challenges and am still trying to transition from life in Korea to life in the US. It’s a weird feeling because sometimes I feel like I never left and other times I wake up and forget that I’m home. I’m trying to handle all of the different emotions but because of everything that needs to be done before Friday, I don’t have much time to sit down and process.
My “To Do” List is overwhelming and the amount of time to finish packing and moving a house is limited. There’s also the part where I have to balance people’s opinions and schedules to make it work since I’m doing this on behalf of an incapacitated family member. Add in some jet lag and I’m tired…some days, I’m downright exhausted.
I have to admit that I had a pretty nice schedule in Korea. I went into to work at 1pm and was done by 8pm, so I had a lot of free time. I had a plan for when I would come back and how everything would work out but due to my mother’s stroke, I am back early and without everything lined up.
I’m scrambling to pack a house, figure out where to live and starting the job hunt. I don’t know which city I’ll end up in as my Mom needs to live with me for a few months and we have more of a family support in one location versus my preferred destination a few hours away.
It can be overwhelming and it most certainly could send me spiraling into anxiety and fear. The unknown is scary but I am rooted in faith. I have moments where I am overwhelmed but I have found that when I focus on God those fears fade. He is my security and He has a plan. He hears my prayers and has reassured me. Yesterday’s reading was Psalm 4 and I just drew so much comfort from it.
“You have given me relief when I was in distress.” – Psalm 4:1
God hasn’t changed my circumstances or made everything miraculously easy but He has given me relief to handle this storm in my life. I know that I am not alone and that He is right here with me, which makes everything seem possible. I don’t know how’s it’s going to work out and I have no answers to the questions I’m asking but that’s okay, because I know it will work out according to His plans. All I need to do is keep the focus on Him.
“In peace I will both lie down and sleep; for you alone, O Lord, make me dwell in safety.”
– Psalm 4:8
How do you handle the storms in your life? What verses have comforted you? I love hearing from y’all.